We're here to live. To love. To create. To give to each other and to experience ourselves as part of life.
I often forget this myself, and become mired in worries and regrets. It takes conscious effort to pull out of a bad space and back into the here and now. This moment, this precious moment of knowing that everything, right now, is fine. It's partly brain chemistry, partly habit, and honestly, partly events that are challenging.
I am in Italy presently, working on the renovation of our Tiny House here. I'm aware I have not written about it in a long time, and that partly has to do with the sense of stress I feel doing this project. I thought it would be easier as I have a good deal of experience in renovating properties, especially in this country. But now, in the thick of it, I find myself mired in details - trying to make the right decisions that take the house in the right direction. We will be doing some of the finish work ourselves, and we'll be trying some things we've never done before to make that happen. I hope it works out. This past week, we've run around in the tortuous Italian heat getting second and third bids on tiles and windows. Those decisions are now made and we've met with the plumber and the electrician and everyone has a clear idea of what will (and will not) be happening.
As I move through this project, I find myself feeling at times brave and at times terrified. It brings back a great deal of memories for me, of course. I keep reminding myself that the house will always be only 50 square meters, or 500 square feet. And Micha helps calm me down. There is only so much you can do in a space of this size. I have to say I like the energy of the space, and feel incredibly blessed to be attempting this at all.
Old houses. They get me every time.
Which is probably why, when it comes to art, I am focusing on houses more than anything else right now. My long, endless search for home comes through in each of these. Home is a theme that comes back to me always. Whether I am painting or making vessels to use in the home, the theme is always there for me. It's been my muse for as long as I've been an artist. I find myself just now giving myself over to its creative pull.
I've become so enamored with these house paintings. I feel led to paint people's homes - in this stylized, primative and organic way. If you would like to consider having your home painted in this way, you can contact me privately. I would be honored to recreate your home or the home of a love one in this way.
In that essence, in the essence of home and calm love and hope for beauty to permeate your life in every way possible, I give you these closing thoughts:
We are here for but a fleeting moment, a moment we can take to share love and creativity in the best ways possible. I want you to know that you, dear reader, you are love. You incorporate love in your body and your soul. You are the essence of spirit, sent to live this life of duality and confusion and beauty and pain, all twisted into a fabric of color and light and dark. These days are sacred morsels for us to treasure. When difficult moments come, remember brighter ones will follow. Nothing stays the same in our fleeting moment here on earth - we're challenged to absorb and learn from continuous change.
May love lead- us home.