If someone had told me twenty years ago, that one day I'd be sitting in the most beautiful Italian piazza on a sultry summer evening, reading to a group of people from a book that I wrote and had been published, I would have just shaken my head and walked away.
Twenty years ago I was working hard at a job I wasn't cut out to do, pushing hard towards mid-thirties mid-management burn out, wondering if there would ever be time to do the things in life I could only dream of. But that's why it's always a mistake to underestimate life and where it can lead us.
I've had some amazing doors open in my life since then. Moving abroad, starting my own businesses, learning languages, learning an artisan craft, becoming first a cross cultural and language coach, then a change coach, and becoming a writer. All of those creative adventures have led here, to now. So many moments. Moments like last weekend are the jewels, though, when everything comes together in a perfect blend of gratitude and joy that are meant to be savored. We send our energy and work out into the world and we don't know where it will lead. Mine lead me here, to this place, on this beautiful July evening, surrounded by a small group of friends and interested readers, where I could actually sit in my own seat of life's purpose, the one I had created, and be completely present, reading passages about beautiful Piedmont and love from my novel, True Vines.
I felt balance. I felt kindness and good will. I felt love.
All of these wonderful feelings have culminated as a result of hard work and dedication, no doubt. But there is also a presence of Spirit that leads us on when we do the hard work we know is right for us. We're granted a fortuitous sense of peace when we're able to let our fear-driven egos take a back seat and step into our soul-driven life purpose. There are moments of great solace and comfort that come from allowing our work to happen.
I want to share with you that in the last few weeks I have had the most heart-warming experiences through coaching. Every single session has been such a pleasure and has given me more than I ever imagined. I am talking to the most wise and brave people, ones who understand that they have a sense of purpose to fulfill. I feel honored to support them and to open new channels of thought to allow energy to flow in a direction that will bring them further into their own purpose.
All of this, all of this wonderful goodness with which I have been blessed - our B&B, my books, coaching, mentoring, art - are a direct result of walking into risk by leaving a predetermined path and crafting an individual one. I can promise you, it has not always been easy. There are days when the push back is harsh and I wonder if I'll have the strength to get back up. But easy isn't what this process is all about. In reality, everything's easy at soul level. <- click to tweet It's when our egos get involved, when fear and self doubt creep into the equation that it feels like a monstrous struggle just to move one tiny step. We feel like we're walking in molasses. But when we understand our purpose, and choose to walk in the direction that our souls know is right for us, the molasses melts into sweet water and we are free to swim in our own sense of meaning.
When I first wrote the book Your Truth back in 2012, it came from a deep rooted sense that we are all capable of assessing our own needs, wants and desires, manifesting change and coping with the related challenges of embracing risk. I feel more strongly about this today than ever.
When we make our intentions clear, when we give ourselves over to those intentions, things will happen to move us, shift us and change us. I know this to be true. I have experienced it unrelentingly for the last ten years. Some days it's been amazing. Some days it's been hard graft.
But last Saturday evening, in Piazza Bollente in Acqui Terme, Italy, it was magic. And I realized, for one small, serendipitous moment, that it was all for this.